• Musings

    Rhetorics and Sunday Musings

    It has been a while I wrote a post just reflecting about life and daily activities. Ok, maybe i have written about that but right now i feel like my emotions are all over the place. I have always wondered how you can be so happy today and the next day something steals your joy. Sometimes it gets so bad that you get drenched in your own tears. Why does this happen? I have often wondered why growing up looked like fun as a kid, but now it is just so much hard work. How come no one ever said anything about how being an adult is so much hardwork?…

  • Life,  Musings

    6 Life Lessons you should never forget.

    08.11.17 Your Hands…. Definitely the first male hands that held me. It’s difficult to accept you will not be able to hold me (physically) through other milestones, but i am glad we made beautiful memories together. Sleep well Daddy. Forever in my Heart. Daddy was laid to rest four days ago and it was all shades of emotional. Three months ago, I thought writing a tribute and biography was hard but having to read it to the audience was even harder. Can any other event get more emotional? Listening to family, his friends and colleagues talk about their relationship with him while he was physically present on earth was nerve…

  • Life,  Meaningful Living,  Musings

    Finding Purpose in your Pain

    Lately, I’ve had to brace up and get back to reality. I’ve had to resume going to the office again and attend church on sunday. I even attempted going for a 10 year old birthday party just to try and soothe how i feel. Have I mentioned that once you lose a loved one, everything stops abruptly? Your schedule, routine and everything that used to matter becomes irrelevant. Going back to work has been difficult. Why? Because not everyone understands that you do not feel like laughing at their jokes (which is supposed to make you feel better) or how unsettling giving a recount of what happened makes you start…

  • Faith,  Life,  Meaningful Living,  Musings

    Meaningful Moments you should Never take for Granted.

    Recent events in the past weeks have made me think a lot more about life choices (past, current and future).  I feel like I am currently happy with what I have done with myself so far but is it really enough? Do I need to do more? Have I been spending my time well? Have I been spending my time with the right people? Have I reached out to the people who matter? Have I asked for help from the right people? Do I reciprocate the love I receive? Do I treat others badly because they have treated me badly? Do I need to spend more time having a relationship…

  • Faith,  Life,  Musings

    When God gives you Lemons

    Did I hear you say make lemonade? I feel like my faith and trust in God was literally tested earlier today in church. It’s the first Sunday in September which translates to thanksgiving in church. If you are not familiar with thanksgiving in a Nigerian church, then think gorgeously dressed men and women with cheerful faces, excited and ready to dance happily to lovely gospel music in all language possible. I had spent the better part of August gathering strenght from inspirational teachings and podcasts and songs that soothe the mind but I had never really practised ‘Thanking God in/for my current ordeal’. This was my chance to put into…

  • Musings

    When Tomorrow Comes

    When tomorrow comes And my alarm goes off But I’m scared to wake up Scared of the truth that awaits me each day The truth that he’s not a door away The truth that he’s not a call away The truth that he’s not a flight away  Or even a road trip away Maybe if I sleep a little longer There might be a miracle It’s probably a dream that feels real Maybe if I ignore my alarm All this might go away They say truth hurts  But they didn’t say it hurts this much My truth hurts And accepting it is my biggest task

  • Musings

    Dear August

    You hit me the hardest in all my years on earth. It’s the last day in August I don’t feel lighter or better. The way I feel about you now and will feel about you in years to come is not any fault of yours neither is it mine, but you now hold a date i always have to remember. Usually, I would get excited about saving dates on my calender but this one brings tears to my eyes. Painful tears because even if I decide not to save the date, it will forever be etched in my mind, soul, heart, body….every part of me. Dear August, you started out…